Do know that post-lunch ‘I ate more rice than I should’ve but I need to get back to work’ food coma?

If so, you & I are kindred spirits, First name / love. (Also, rice is in our DNA, it’s hard to fight who we are)

During this specific food coma yesterday, I was gazing out the window onto Hong Kong’s famous harbour. Adorned with concrete buildings on both banks and only revealing a wide strip of wavy blue water in the middle.

On the right side, the clouds gathered in dark heavy slabs, and shadowy rain was pouring through, whooshing and wheezing.

Yet on the left side, the sky was calm, light, and baby blue.

The clouds were small, white and floofy, and so sparse and airy that they let literal rays of light shine through into the city. (cue: little cherubs with dainty wings perching on the clouds smiling at you :-) 👼👼

And during this spectacular mid-coma gaze, I had this epiphany:

“Wow, both can exist at the same time”

Sometimes our emotions can feel all-consuming. Maybe it’s because of watching too many Disney movies. You always see the princess vs. the witch, the hero vs. the villain. (also if you’ve seen the live-action Little Mermaid recently, I’m still sobbing from Halle’s amazing “Paart of your woooorrld”, please sob mermaid tears with me). 🧜‍♀️😭

But WHAT IF: We can embrace being the princess and the witch.

The hero and the villain.

Instead of fighting, what if we allowed both our Light and Shadow to exist at the same time?

Because the reality is, we often hold both sides inside.

Just like our obsession with rice, it’s so embedded in our DNA that not having it makes us feel sad. Detached.

Even though we know having 3+ bowls isn’t healthy for us. But what if we caved and allowed ourselves to enjoy the rice-blood of our ancestors?

The key isn’t to completely eliminate, but embrace the part of us that craves one bowl but feels guilty or ashamed to.

We can hold space for both our light and our shadow.

Powerful things can happen when we embrace the parts of us that we’ve been trying to push away. And just like nature itself shows us, both can co-exist.

It can feel disturbing to accept this, but when we know that part of ourselves we’ve been pushing away more intimately, the more we’re able to step fully and courageously into the path of knowing what makes us feel confident and whole.

Having this mid-coma epiphany confirms why I felt so drawn to Human Design and learning about my chart.

I was trying so hard to shed these negative emotions cause I thought, I’ve healed, I’m healing and I’m a healer, so I don’t need them!

🚨 BZZZZZZ 🚨 (this is supposed to be the sound of the harsh wrong buzzer aka I couldn't be more wrong)

The moment I learned about my not-self/ shadow theme, it made me so much more at peace with who I am. (Ironically!)

I now know that this bitterness I feel isn’t just something that I go through alone, but I know that my fellow Projectors are also going through the icky and cavernous and monster-like emotions too.

By learning your Human Design Chart, you're able to embrace the ick, and transform your pain into power! It's magic First name!

Embracing your Shadow allows you to leverage your gifts and what makes you unique!

Being seen is amazing.

Seeing yourself is freeing.

TLDR:

Embracing your light and your shadows makes you more whole, and is integral to healing. Pushing our shadows away hurts us further.

If you want to know more about your Human Design and how you can embrace your shadow too, click on the yellow button below: